Kamis, 29 Desember 2011

thankyou ☺

every thing that be my decision, I never want to regret it. 


when I was in junior high school years, I have a friend,
a dear friend who has never scolded me, that my face was always gentle,
patient advised me,  that was always afraid when I get mad at him.
I love him, Ioved him dearly. but i decided not to fall in love with him that our friendship was never destroyed only because of love. I bury all my feeling, and I never will regret it.

me and my friend entered the same high school.
at the beginning of my school at the senior high school,
I know that he also harbored the same feelings with me from when we were in
junior high school. I am happy to have the same feelings with him​​
he and me mutually expressed, although we know that we will
never unite because he has a girlfriend. and I never regretted
the confession that I point out that I loved him.
although because of the recognition that we are away from each other,
like people who are hostile. no exchange of greetings,
don't talk to each other, ya like people who don't know each other.

about two years passed, my relationship with my best friend
was a bit better. we hadexchanged greetings, we had time to
gather together with friends during our junior high school.
 i tried removing my feelings to him. and I succeeded, I found someone who
I consider to bereplaced.

a new student transferred from another island.
I initially was not interested in him. because I think he is
a pompous, arrogant. lately my time at the senior high school
I was getting close to him. yeah started when he asked me to become
his best friend, since that time we often hang out together,
came home from school together. I got interested with him, but I'm
not sure Icould love him like my first love my best friend.
I spent day after day, week after week, month after month.
until finally we parted because I think he was not
faithful to me and often spent time with another woman. 
his mind not in me, maybe in another woman. 
maybe I was tooweak to not let it go. I've never regretted 
put him in my life even though it was painful for me. 
and now, our relationship improved. we are back to being friends

about four months I could just convince my heart to choose
a new person in my heart. my senior when i was the senior high school.
a former chairman of futsal. I think he is a goodman,
my friends also thinking the same with me. millions
hope that I had when I was with him. I convinced
myself that he would never leave me, will not betray me.
I am happy with him. I love him.
month we were together, then he should go to Yogyakarta to continuehis studies. 
I am sad but I believe myself that will not solve 
our distance. but I was wrong, the distance made 
​​us fight a lot. suspicions always disturb our relationship. 
when I had to leave my friends, so we don't fight continue. 
but he never wanted to keep the distance with his friend. 
then I think, maybe he was important in my life, 
but not vice versa. yeah i was never important to him, 
he was more than willing to lose I have to lose a little happiness there. 
I broke up with him, because I know if I stay in touch with him, 
I would feel more pain.


and now I want to start my new life. need not be too 
quick to get new people, but I would definitely look for someone who is best. 
thank you ever dye my life

and thanks, you guys taught me about many things. I'm sure all that happened to me, all you do to me, all of which I have passed made ​​me more mature to be 

today my life begins

when i stopped writing about you,
then when i was tired of all my fantasies about you

i miss the times when you hug me

i miss the times when you lend me your shoulder for me

i miss the times you reassure me when i doubted

i miss the times you asked me to wait for you

i miss the times you asked me to accompany you there

i miss the times when you persuaded me to get back to you

i miss the times when you said you really love me and didn't want me to go

i miss the times you convinced me that we can get past all the stuff together

i miss the times when you hold me when i want to go from you

and i miss the times when i asked you to trust me

and i miss the times i waited you to come to my house

and i miss the times when i remove my tears for you

and i miss the times i cover up all my pain for us

and i miss the times i have survived for us

and i miss the times i left all the things that make me happy, for us

and i miss the times when i beat my ego for us

and i miss the times i was waiting for you here

and i miss the times i trust you

and i miss the times i asked you to go home

and i miss the times i was waiting for your return to be like before

and i miss the times i fear my eliminate about what you did there

and i miss the times i waited for a text from you, a call from you among all your busyness

and now i will stop writing abot you,
because i'm tired of all my fantasies about you